Rough weekend

This weekend was a really rough weekend. I’m not even entirely sure why – it’s not like I had any sort of bad news, but still, was just really upset. Thinking about babies, hearing about them, seeing them …. It all just really upset me and I spent most of the day Saturday and part of Sunday, laying on the couch crying/napping/watching stupid movies. 99% of the time I am fine being around babies, I usually love it. I like hearing about how things are going, planning showers, asking how pregnancies are, etc. This weekend I just didn’t.

I have no idea what triggered it. Could be because it was so gloomy and rainy on Saturday. Could be because Jason was gone most of the weekend with work/Relay for Life stuff. Could be because I was talking to my mom about all of the garage sales with baby stuff. I remember last summer during garage sale season being excited that I’d hopefully get to go around and find some good deals on things. Now we’re to another garage sale season and I still can’t do that.

Whatever the cause, everything just hurt this weekend. Luckily I have an amazing husband, who just by giving me a hug when he got home, can make me feel so much better. I feel bad, because I know there are times he’s hurting too, but he’s so strong for me when I can’t seem to be.

I know this may make it difficult for my friends – what can they say, not say, how will they know if I’m upset, etc. All I can say is that there really is no good answer as this is such a twisted emotional rollercoaster. Like I said before though, 99% of the time I’m just fine and love to hear about everything. So I guess I’m saying that no one has to act differently or feel bad if I’m upset, but just understand if I don’t seem as interested or excited about baby things as normal that I’m not trying to be rude, I just need some time to be away from it for awhile.