Taking a break ...

I had an ultrasound this morning and it started out with good news – the fluid that was in my uterus 2 ½ weeks ago is gone. Then for the bad news – the cyst is still there. It’s actually in my left ovary, not my right like I’ve thought all along. Instead of shrinking or going away, it actually got a little bit bigger. It’s 2 ½ cm x 3 cm x 3 cm, which isn’t huge (about an inch and a quarter), but it’s basically taking up my entire left ovary.

That means definitely no Clomid this cycle, because that would just feed the cyst. They’re also putting me on birth control. (I did get a free box of Yaz though, so at least that’s something.) I just never thought that I’d be put back on birth control to help me get pregnant. I was ok in the office, but then broke down a bit in the car. I just hate that we’re not trying this month, not to mention I’d had these visions of a BFP on Christmas morning. On the flip side, at least I won’t have to stress about anything over the holidays, and I can take a month off from charting. It will be nice to not have to take my temp every morning.

I’ll go back when my next cycle starts for another ultrasound to see if the cyst is gone. If it is then we’ll do another round of Clomid, a post coital test as an initial look at the sperm, a mid cycle ultrasound with a possible trigger shot, and timed intercourse. If the cyst is still there then I’ll be on birth control in January as well.

I just never thought that I wouldn’t get pregnant in 2007. I know that so many women have it much worse, but right now I’m going to feel a little sorry for myself. I also don’t want anyone who is pregnant or soon to be pregnant to not feel like they can talk to me. I really am ok, just going to have a pity party for the rest of the afternoon.

Thanks for listening. :)