Jason and I tested yesterday and today, both of which were as negative as can be. Yesterday was 10dp5dt, or 15dpo, so we are confident in the results. (Especially after today's as well.) I'm calling Kim to try to get my beta moved to today or tomorrow to confirm and end this nightmare.
We are heartbroken, devastated, bitter, angry - any emotion that makes you either want to break something or stay in bed for a long time.
I have not thought ahead, other than just to get through today.
First infertility stamp
The problem with infertility is that I am mourning children that do not exist and I'm the only one who misses them.
TTC Journey
- Cycle #26 - 37 days
- Cycle #25 - FET cycle - transferred in an expanding blast and a morula on 3/23/09 - BFN
- Cycle #24 - 30 days - BFN
- Cycle #23 - 28 days, O on CD 18, 10 day LP - BFN
- Cycle #22 - 32 days, O on CD 22, 10 day LP - BFN
- Cycle #21 (or 20.5) - start stims on 11/3, Trigger on 11/13 (E2 at 682), ER on 11/15 (8 eggs retrieved, 6 mature, 6 fertilized), ET on 11/20 (2 grade A blasts, 2 were frozen) - BFN
- Cycle #20 - still on bcp - started Lupron shots on Oct. 22nd
- Cycle #19 - Break cycle - on bcp to regulate for IVF cycle
- Cycle #18 - On on CD 15 (Lepori on CD 3-10 - upped to 4 vials on CD 9, trigger on CD 13 with follicles at 18.7, 15.8, 15.4, 13.4 and smaller ones, lining at 9.3, E2 at 639, IUI on CD15) - BFN
- Cycle #17 - 22 day, O on CD 13 (Lepori on CD 3-10, trigger on CD11 with follicles at 19.3, 19, 17.4 and 5 smaller ones, lining at 9.1, E2 at 542, IUI on CD13) - BFN
- Cycle #16 - 29 day, O on CD 15 (5mg Letrozole on CD 3-7, trigger on CD13/14 (2am!) with follies at 18.5, and 5 smaller ones under 12. Lining at 6.1 on CD13, IUI on CD15 in the afternoon) - BFN
- Cycle #15 - 29 days, O on CD16 (50 mg Clomid on CD3-7, trigger on CD14 with follicles at 19.5, 17.4, 16, and 2 smaller ones. Lining at 4.7 on CD14 and over 5 on CD16, IUI on CD16) - BFN
- Cycle #14 - Break Cycle - 33 days - BFN. Relaxing didn't work.
- Cycle #13 - 23 days, O on CD 13, 10 day LP (Lepori on CD3-10, trigger on CD11 with one follicle at 18, the rest small, lining at 6.7, E2 at 290, IUI on CD13) - BFN
- Cycle #12 - 24 days, O on CD 13?, 11day LP (Lepori (Repronex generic) on CD3-10, trigger on CD11 with one follicle at 18, one at 14, 5 smaller ones, and lining at 8mm, E2 at 210, IUI on CD13) - BFN
- Cycle #11 – 27 days, O on CD 13, 14 day LP (50mg Clomid on CD3-7, trigger on CD12 with follicle at 20+mm, and lining at 4mm, IUI on CD13) – BFN
- Cycle #10 – 31 days, O on CD 17, 14 day LP (50mg Clomid on CD3-7) – BFN
- Cycle #9 – 36 days, forced break on Yaz, due to cyst - BFN
- Cycle #8 – 29 days, O on CD16, 14 day LP (50mg Clomid on CD3-7, found cyst on CD12) - BFN
- Cycle #7 – 30 days, O on CD16, 14 day LP (50mg Clomid on CD3-7, P4=32.5 at 5dpo) - BFN
- Cycle #6 – 35 days, O on CD23, 12 day LP (first Re appt. P4=8.7 at 8dpo) - BFN
- Cycle #5 – 35 days, O on CD22, 13 day LP - BFN
- Cycle #4 – 33 days, didn’t chart - BFN
- Cycle #3 – 28 days, O on CD15, 13 day LP - BFN
- Cycle #2 – 34 days, O on CD15, 19 day LP (took B6 to extend LP) - BFN
- Cycle #1 – 28 days, O on CD21, 7 day LP - BFN
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4 comments:
We are thinking of you guys! Love ya!
Love you, Laura.
I'm sorry Laura.
I am so sorry, Laura. This is just not fair.
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