8dpiui

Over halfway there - and the nerves have kicked in. I didn't sleep well, and I can't hardly sit still. Deep down I feel like I'm not pregnant, but it's too early to really know, so there is always that little bit of hope that keeps me anxious. I started temping again a few days ago, so I stare at those trying to figure out if they mean something. Probably not, especially since I can't decide if I should use the temps from 4:30am the past two mornings, or do the temp adjustor to see what they likely would have been at the normal 5:30 time. Do the twinge/crampy feelings mean anything, or are they the same that I get every month sometime in the week before AF? My boobs have stopped hurting as much which makes me sad. (They were SO sore starting the day after the trigger shot but are dying down now.) How am I going to handle it if I'm not pregnant this month? I try to prepare myself for it and not expect any great news, but it still sucks when you find out you were right. What will I do about ordering the meds if I'm not pregnant? I only have enough for two days worth leftover - which means I'd need to get them by CD5. IF AF arrives in the morning and IF I get them ordered right then, I should have time in time. What if I start over the weekend though? (The other two injectable cycles were shorter - with only 11 day LP, so it's possible that I'll start this weekend.) Should I call Kim on Friday and have her call the prescription in, so that I can order them right when I need to? Does the place even ship things out over the weekend? I know they deliver 7 days/week, but what about processing/shipping?

Those are just some of the thoughts that kept me up last night. There is also the happier flip side - how will it feel if I AM pregnant? How will we tell people? When will we tell people? What if I get a BFP, only to find out that my beta doesn't double and it's not going to last?

Oh, that reminds me - I can't remember if I told people what will happen if I ever do get a BFP. I'll go down that day for bloodwork to get my beta hcg level. There are certain ranges that they want that to be in, but the biggest thing is that it should double roughly every 2 days (although I've read 72 hours in some places.) So I'll go down a few days later for a second beta, and then I'm not sure about a third or not. Then about 6 weeks I'll have an u/s with Dr. Shepard to see how things are going. If they're happy, then they'll release me to my OB for the rest of the pregnancy.