Saturday's appt

I had 4 follies, all roughly 8 in my left ovary and then 2 the same size in my right and 3 smaller ones. So 9 total. She said that she didn't think I'd develop anymore, but hopefully I'll end up with those 9. I was pretty disappointed and started crying. She said that she knows I've read on message boards where people have a lot more, but that you don't have to. I just keep remembering during my IVF consult they said that they wanted 10-15. I'm trying not to panic too much yet. We have another u/s on Tuesday and I guess that will tell us more then. I just don't understand how some people can be on low doses of stuff and here I am on 300 of Repronex (4 vials, which at least seems like a lot to me) and don't have much of a response at all. I actually just went and looked at my response on the lepori (generic repronex) on around this same day, and I tended to have 7-8 follicles even then, and some were bigger! Now I'm on the real stuff, more of it, and it's worse? Although I guess the plus is that they're mostly the same size now, instead of one or two being bigger. Argh, this is just so frustrating. She did say that I had I stayed on Lupron they probably would have been even smaller.

Oh, and the full feeling I was having? While I know part of it is ovary related, I'm pretty sure I'm also constipated. (Lovely to know, eh?) Can I blame this one IF too? (Actually maybe I can - I figure it's because my diet has been crap lately (poor choice of words) and that I can blame on the stress which can be blamed on IF. :)

Anyways, I'm feeling better today than I did yesterday. Truthfully, I came home yesterday, got back into some pjs and stayed in them all day. (I also managed to read book 3 AND 4 of the Twilight series!) Then I got an email back from my friend Andrea and felt much better. She reassured me that some people just start slow but that doesn't mean it won't work. I also don't need to have 20 follies for it to work. She had 8 total, 5 of which fertilized, and is now expecting a little boy.

So I'll go back on Tuesday and we'll see!