After a short hiatus, Jason and I are sort of back at it all. We had a second opinion appt with Dr. M and while we really liked him, he didn't have any "ah hah!" revelations that would cause us to switch to him. We're nearing the end of our TTC road anyways, so we decided to just finish with Dr. S. I started shots this week for our FET cycle and we'll (hopefully!) be transferring our two little frozen embryos on March 23.
Also, and I'm so excited about this, we have decided to pursue adoption! In fact, this FET cycle is almost more of a "let's just get this over with" sort of feeling, which is bizarre. Obviously I'll be thrilled if it works and we don't go down this path, but we are at peace with our decision about adoption and I'm looking forward to getting started (and scared to death!) We're actually going ahead and meeting with one agency on March 8th and another on March 18th.
The big turning point for me was Christmas Eve. We were at mass and a little boy (4 maybe?) sang a solo in Silent Night. His dad was sitting in front of me videotaping and it just became too much for me. Finally, being pregnant wasn't as important - having the family, videotaping our kids at a Christmas program (even as silly as that sounds), etc - is what we want. Obviously I'm going to miss the experience of being pregnant and that makes me sad, but once we bring that baby home, that part isn't going to matter anymore.
So anyways, that's what's going on with us! I'm not going to say that I'm always calm and happy about it all - and I know that this road will be just as difficult (if not more) but I'm happier than I have been in awhile, so that's nice.
In non TTC news - I got a sewing machine for my birthday! I've never really sewn much in my adult life (except for a hooded baby towel I made for a friend a few months ago) and have become obsessed now! I'm still learning, but I love it!
So that's it from me! :)
